Saturday, April 20, 2019

Disappointed

It is very hard to stick with updating this blog. This past week has been very bad for me. I really have no idea how much I may have gained back from simply recovering from being so sick and how much of it is due to my own failings. I am sure it was a little of both that equaled a huge setback. Let's get to the numbers.

The previous weigh in on 4/13 was 374.6 pounds. When I weighed in this morning I have gained 12 pounds. My current weight is 386.6 pounds.

The bottom line is that I know that I messed up a lot. I did not keep track of the calories that I consumed this week. I have to do better. I lost focus this week and just felt too busy to log calories. Which is kind of comical because it really doesn't take very long to log. I am pretty disappointed and discouraged right now.

I am going to go ahead and enter what I did log even though it is incomplete. I need to get focused and motivated. I felt like I did more from an activity point of view. Let's see if that is reflected in my calorie burns. Here are the numbers. Again, the calorie consumption numbers are incomplete. The calorie burns are accurate since I always wear my Apple Watch. I hope to something better to write about next time.

4/13 3,200 calories in, 3,911 calories out
4/14 2,098 calories in, 3,933 calories out
4/15 nothing logged in, 4,118 calories out
4/16 nothing logged in, 4,658 calories out
4/17 nothing logged in, 4,618 calories out
4/18 2,370 calories in, 4,353 calories out
4/19 nothing logged in, 4,591 calories out

Saturday, April 13, 2019

Sick

I have had quite the week. I hope everyone had a much better week than I did. Even when times are difficult there can be positive outcomes. This may be one such occasion. I will write about that in more detail shortly. Let's begin with the numbers and go from there.

The previous weigh in on 4/6 was 384.0 pounds. When I weighed in just a few minutes ago I have lost 9.4 pounds. My current weight is 374.6 pounds.

How did I lose this much weight in one week? It is pretty easy when can't keep anything down. I was so sick. I cannot remember the last time that I was this sick. That may not be so unusual given that I am getting old as dirt. I missed quite a bit of work and technically when I went back was still having problems. I don't want to get too graphic but it was a very rough week. I barely ate anything and drank lots of fluids to try to stay hydrated.

Unfortunately I don't know what else to really say about the week. I am going to post the partial numbers that I have below. I apologize that I failed to log calories on some of those days. Hopefully I can keep most of this weight off without any rubber band effect since I am starting to feel better. I am going to do my best. Hopefully the next blog post will be a bit more interesting than this one. That said, I do like the numbers. Stay safe my friends.

4/6 2,070 calories in, 4,794 calories out
4/7 2,260 calories in, 4,047 calories out
4/8 sick, nothing logged, 4053 calories out
4/9 sick, nothing logged, 4,213 calories out
4/10 sick, nothing logged, 3,543 calories out
4/11 sick, nothing logged, 3,893 calories out
4/12 2,535 calories in, 4,248 calories out

Saturday, April 6, 2019

Failure

It is that time again. I have to admit at the outset that I did not want to write this blog post. Prior to weighing, I knew that I had a rough week. I was afraid that I may have gained everything back. I will get into that more shortly. First, let's get the numbers out of the way.

The previous weigh in on 3/30 was 383.2 pounds. The past week resulted in a gain of 0.8 pounds. My current weight is currently 384.0 pounds.

I am actually pretty relieved to see that number. This past week I had very little restraint. I feel like a hypocrite writing about temptations that I recognized last week and yet I succumbed to them this week in a big way. I am disappointed and feel like a failure. This was responsible for my reluctance to write this blog post.

Yet, I know that for me, this race is not going to be easy. No one is going to run it for me and I am going to stumble. I have to get back up. I have to fight. I have too much on the line. I will force myself to write about it when I fail because failure will not be an option for me. I will only be a failure if I give up. I hope that anyone reading this blog will be able to relate in some way and understand that if I say something one week that I may miss the mark the next. But my intentions are sincere.

I am very embarrassed to post these calorie numbers from the past week but I own this shortcoming. This was my fault. I will not paint it as something it was not. I need a better week to write about next time. Until then, goodbye!

3/30 2,869 calories in, 5,030 calories out
3/31 3,200 calories in, 4,312 calories out
4/1 3,828 calories in, 4,551 calories out
4/2 4,680 calories in, 4,775 calories out
4/3 3,842 calories in, 4,182 calories out
4/4 2,943 calories in, 4,895 calories out
4/5 4,050 calories in, 4,629 calories out

Saturday, March 30, 2019

Numbers

It is time to weigh in! It was interesting to be back on the weight loss routine. I definitely noticed a couple of things that were temptations and points of failure prior to starting this up again. I will get into that shortly. First, let's see take a look at how the numbers for the first week stacked up.

The previous weigh in on 3/23 was 388.0 pounds. My past week of effort was rewarded with 4.8 pounds of weight loss. My current weight is now 383.2 pounds.

Two things very much stood out to me this past week. One was that I have a problem with eating very late at night. That is not a healthy habit because you don't really give your body a chance to burn any of those calories. I was so tempted to eat late at night. I was not perfect on this front. I believe that a couple of times I ate after midnight. To combat this, I counted those calories on the next day's log which reduced the calories that were available to me going into that day. Still, I know that is not a good habit and I will make every effort to stop that. The second thing was that when I am super busy and do not get to log my calories at the time I eat or before I eat again, problems happen. If you refer to the calorie log below, the two days I consumed 3k plus calories both happened on days that were busy and I ended up logging calories at the end of the day. Then I was disappointed to find out how many calories were in some of those items. I will also make more of an effort to log calories in a more timely fashion.

All things considered, I have to say that I am pretty excited to have lost nearly five pounds. I have a long way to go and I know that this was probably going to be easiest weigh in that I will have. Based on prior experience and common sense, things will only get more difficult from here. Still, I know that I can do this and I am motivated to stay the course.  Thank you to everyone that offered me encouragement and kind words. I appreciate you all so very much! Take care!

3/23 - 2,238 calories in, 4,424 calories out
3/24 - 3,083 calories in, 4,315 calories out
3/25 - 2,558 calories in, 4,436 calories out
3/26 - 2,578 calories in, 4,509 calories out
3/27 - 2,130 calories in, 4,672 calories out
3/28 - 3,362 calories in, 4,802 calories out
3/29 - 2,670 calories in, 4,907 calories out

Saturday, March 23, 2019

Way Too Long

I am reticent to even write this post to be honest. Putting oneself out there on a subject like weight loss is great when you are doing well but what I have found is that I begin to feel like a phony when I attempt to start again. I have heard many times that the most successful people in the world failed quite a bit before becoming successful. I am hoping that this can be true of my weight loss journey as well. Anyone that has followed my journey will know that I have started and stopped many times now. For those that have followed it since the beginning, I did lose close to 100 pounds the first time. I write all this because it is difficult for me to put a stake in the ground and tell you that I am going to do this. In my mind, there will be those that say, "Yeah right, we have heard that before." But that assumes anyone even reads this blog. Haha. At least I have not lost my sense of humor.

Still, I must decide to do this. The thing that helped me in the past was knowing that I was going to make my weight loss journey public and that would keep me accountable. So, here we go. I just weighed in this morning and my current weight is 388 pounds even. I have a lot of work to do. I plan to weigh in weekly now simply because that affords me a weekend to write these blog posts. I will log my calories with the Lose It app. Let me know if anyone wants to follow me there. I will log my activity using my Apple Watch. I may or may not log my weekly calorie consumption vs. burn numbers inside each blog post. I had made a separate post for that in the past just for my own records.

I am pretty excited to start this process again. It is very much needed. Hopefully some people will find this content interesting or perhaps even find motivation as well. That would be incredible. To that end, I will be posting links to my Facebook account. Hopefully people do that find that super annoying. I am always conflicted by it but on the other hand it is very similar to a regular FB post in that I am sharing how I am doing and what is going on in my life. Anyway, I will stop rambling now. Check back next Saturday to see how much progress has been made. Oh, I forgot to mention that my goal is the same as it has always been. I want to weigh in under 200 pounds. Technically, I would love to get back to my high school weight of 175 pounds but that would be the extra push after the big initial goal. Until next time, goodbye!

Saturday, May 5, 2018

Catching Up

Hello! It has been more than a month since my last blog post. At some point after the post that precedes this one I lost focus for a time. On April 23rd I regained my focus and put into place a new kind of motivation for myself. This post is being written on May 5th and at least to this point it has worked well for me. More on that in a moment. For now, let me catch everyone up on what has happened since the 23rd of April.

On the 23rd of April, I weighed in at 388.8 pounds. I was just sick of it. My body was never meant to carry that kind of weight and it has been making me painfully aware of that recently. This brought on my idea of what I could do to keep myself motivated throughout the year that I will discuss later on. I weighed again on the 25th of April and then everyday since. The 25th of April is when I began to count calories. Below I will detail my weight on each of those days.

April 25th: 385 (lost 3.8)
April 26th: 385 (lost 0)
April 27th: 383.6 (lost 1.4)
April 28th: 385.6 (gained 2)
April 29th: 383.6 (lost 2)
April 30th: 383.4 (lost 0.2)
May 1st: 383.4 (lost 0)
May 2nd: 383.2 (lost 0.2)
May 3rd: 382 (lost 1.2)
May 4th: 380.8 (lost 1.2)
May 5th: 380.6 (lost 0.2)

This means that I have lost 8.2 pounds since the 23rd of April. That is not necessarily incredible but it is a system that I can keep doing. So what is this motivation that I had mentioned? Well, I was thinking about how I need all kinds of different goals to keep myself motivated. When I lost close to 100 pounds the first time it was because I kept goals that were small and then the overall big goal. An example of a small goal for me right now will be to break below the 380 pound mark. I should be able to do that very soon. It is within reach and attainable. My big goal would be to break below 200 pounds and perhaps someday even attain my high school weight of 175.

What is the common theme between both the small term goal and the long term goal? They are just numbers! There are also no intermediate goals. Once you chew through (pun intended) a few of those short term goals it can get redundant. There is always a new number that is within reach but if I am not careful I can lose sight of the why.

What I have decided to do is to add an intermediate goal that has meaning to me besides just being another number. Numbers do eventually get a little boring to me. There is significance to the time frame of me starting this and what turned me on to this idea. When I was in California in March helping my folks out with some work my father expressed that he was very concerned about my weight and the impact that will have on my life. In some ways I suspect that most guys want to make their father proud. It took me some time after the fact to collect myself and take action.

April 25th is my father's birthday and it just so happens that I have someone important to me with a birthday spread across the entire calendar year within a few months of each other. Mom's is in July. One daughter is September, the other daughter is November. My birthday is in February. Then it repeats. While I am losing the weight for myself, it does help me put down that last slice of pizza when I consider that my mom just might treasure me dropping 25 pounds by her birthday more than any other gift I could give her.

Now I always have someone to think about whenever I am tempted. Not like in a judgmental way at all. I just focus on how I want to have an amazing weight loss number for them by their birthday. Then we will both have something to celebrate on their special day!

Saturday, March 10, 2018

Not Easy

Welcome to another weigh in post! Today is March 10th and I have some good news to report. I have to be honest. I was very tempted to have a late night snack last night. That is not a good thing before a weigh in the next morning. Instead, I turned off the lights and went to bed. Losing weight is not easy but it feels good to do the right thing.

I nearly lost 4 pounds (3.8) since my prior weigh in which was March 5th. My current weight is 376.2 pounds. This puts my total weight loss at more than 5 pounds (5.6) and my total weight loss from my heaviest weigh in at exactly 7 pounds.

I have been very good about following my calorie budget. This is a lifestyle change for sure. It cannot be something that you do for a little while and then go back to your old habits. A friend of mine mentioned his uncle having successfully dropped a lot of weight and then gaining it back but then losing it again. In a way, that is kind of what happened to me. Although I never reached my target weight the first time, I did drop close to 100 pounds only to gain it back again plus some. This time needs to be different. This time will be different. I am done with this!

I am excited to see more progress at my next weigh in which will be March 15th. I love the energy that I am getting back already. I mentioned before that I have a little more spring in my step and in addition, I think my attitude is better. I think that sometimes in life we feel that we are not steering the ship so to speak. That we are kind of just along for the ride. Friends, weight is something that we can exert our control over. It does take discipline and restraint, but the rewards are going to be so worth it! Goodbye for now!