Sunday, August 14, 2022

Week 1

Has it been a week already? I don't know about anyone else, but it sure feels as if the older that I get the faster time moves. When I was a kid, a week seemed to take an eternity. Now, weeks pass by so quickly. Anyway, let's look at the numbers.

I weighed in this morning at 407.2 pounds. Looking back, my previous weigh in registered at 410.5 pounds. That means that I have lost 3.3 pounds this week.

I am not displeased with those numbers. However, I am aware of a couple of times that I could have done better. It was interesting trying to lose weight again. It seems like I had to remind myself of a few things a couple of times. The times that I could have done better I was a pretty down on myself. I had to remember that with weight loss, it is important to focus on winning the overall war. Individual battles may not always be won and when things go that way it would be silly to wave a white flag and surrender. Because even though a couple of days could have been better, I still lost a decent amount of weight. This was because I won more of the battles than I lost this week.

There is something that feels empowering about taking control of your diet. When not paying attention and counting calories it is easy to be unaware of how much I am consuming calorie wise. I think for me anyway, it is because I don't often think about what is in food. I guess that maybe I just go off what I perceive to be quantity. That is a mistake. For example, this burger is the same size as that burger therefore they are equal. But what if one burger has mayo and ketchup and the other has only mustard?

Patience is difficult. I remember when I lost close to a hundred pounds on my first weight loss journey. That took years. Because the goal was a couple of pounds every week and sometimes you would hit plateaus. This will test me. Because I want to make progress quickly. Frustration can easily set in even when making progress. More so when I hit a plateau. Some of the most frustrating weighs in from first journey were when I had a really good week, hit all my marks, only to weigh in and be the exact same weight as the week before or maybe even post a small gain.

I am not a doctor, but it stands to reason that there are many changes going on when attempting to lose weight. It was my experience the last time I had success that as I lost weight it was much easier to be more active. I had taken up walking to assist with the progress I had made. When that is the case then you are surely building some muscle mass. But on the other hand, it takes muscle to move around a 400-pound frame.

Should anyone else be following along and in a similar situation with needing to lose large quantities of weight, here is something that I have learned. Well intentioned people will want to help you. And to that end they may say things like, what would really speed this up is if you took on insert exercise routine here. Something like P90X maybe. Usually, the people that have told me this are not massively overweight. So, I just say in a nice way, imagine you had a person exactly your weight piggyback and then you tried to do P90X. How long do you think your joints would last? Would your knees or ankles hold up or would you do a lot of damage to your body? I do not say that to be mean to that person as I know they are trying to help.

Oh, that reminds me, well intentioned people may also say you should try X diet or Y diet. There may come a time where exercise routines or diets are the best way to move forward. But at double my target weight I need to do things that are doable for me right now. As it stands now, when I get home from work, I am exhausted. Specialized meal prep and so on most likely would not happen or be something I could do long term. I feel like making it through the workday is a battle in itself.

At any rate, my plan right now is to stay within my calorie budget. I know that once I drop some weight it will be easier for me to do activities. At that time, I will take up walking again. That was how I lost a hundred pounds the first time. Perhaps when I am down a hundred pounds, I will need to take up something else to continue to move forward. For now, I think this is the best plan for me. I appreciate all the encouragement I received from everyone. It is great knowing that people care. I hope that if you are someone that has recommended an exercise routine or diet to me that you understand where I was coming from. It is a blessing to have people care enough about you to want to help. I appreciate and am lucky to have people in my life that want to help me. If someone has never been massively overweight, it is difficult to fully communicate what it is like. When I lost those hundred pounds, I keep talking about I could do so much more activity and I felt like a million bucks. It will transform my life and I cannot wait to get there. Until next week my friends. Goodbye.

Sunday, August 7, 2022

I must do this!

Here I go again. I have been pretty inconsistent over the course of this blog. Yet, something must change. I cannot continue to live this way. I must do this!

My current weight is 410.5 pounds.

I honestly cannot go on living like this. I mean that quite literally. I ask myself what the average lifespan of a 400-pound man might be? I don't really want to know the answer to that. In many ways, clues to that manifest themselves in my life every day. For example, both of my knees are shot. I am sure that at least the left one probably needs some type of surgery and yet I am confident that any doctor would tell me that I need to lose weight first. Otherwise, it would be pointless. Knees are not meant to carry around this type of weight for years and years on end.

I think back to when I began this blog and my first weight loss journey. At that time, I weighed around 350 pounds and I found that number unacceptable. Now, I weigh 60 pounds more than that. The first weight loss journey I was able to lose around 100 pounds and it took me years to do that. I have always wanted to do it for myself. Because I just know that if I have a procedure to help me lose weight that once I had lost the weight, I would not have learned how to do it for myself. I would have been forced into it and my biggest fear would be to have a procedure and gain all the weight back since I did not learn how to lose weight. On the other hand, I have not been successful at keeping weight off since initially losing those 100 pounds.

The tools I will use to lose weight will be similar to what I have used in the past. I will track my weight weekly on Sunday mornings. I will log my calorie intake daily in MyFitnessPal. I have used Lose It in the past but let me explain why I want to go back to MyFitnessPal after using Lose It the last several attempts. I used MFP back when I had the most success. It is not so much about that. It actually has everything to do with my step counter. I simply enjoy the way that MFP integrates my Apple Watch into my daily logs. With LI there does not seem to be much data regarding steps or anything. It is only when you have a lot of activity that you see an adjustment to your calories budget. What I find with MFP though is that as I log my calories it is very easy to see my last synced step count and I found that was often times a motivator to get up and be more active.

I am thinking hard about whether or not I want to make some kind of commitment that if I have not lost weight in a year that maybe I will just undergo a procedure anyway. I will continue to think about that and discuss further in future blog posts. Something has to give. That is for sure, and I don't want it to be my time on earth. More in a week. Goodbye.