I must do this!

Here I go again. I have been pretty inconsistent over the course of this blog. Yet, something must change. I cannot continue to live this way. I must do this!

My current weight is 410.5 pounds.

I honestly cannot go on living like this. I mean that quite literally. I ask myself what the average lifespan of a 400-pound man might be? I don't really want to know the answer to that. In many ways, clues to that manifest themselves in my life every day. For example, both of my knees are shot. I am sure that at least the left one probably needs some type of surgery and yet I am confident that any doctor would tell me that I need to lose weight first. Otherwise, it would be pointless. Knees are not meant to carry around this type of weight for years and years on end.

I think back to when I began this blog and my first weight loss journey. At that time, I weighed around 350 pounds and I found that number unacceptable. Now, I weigh 60 pounds more than that. The first weight loss journey I was able to lose around 100 pounds and it took me years to do that. I have always wanted to do it for myself. Because I just know that if I have a procedure to help me lose weight that once I had lost the weight, I would not have learned how to do it for myself. I would have been forced into it and my biggest fear would be to have a procedure and gain all the weight back since I did not learn how to lose weight. On the other hand, I have not been successful at keeping weight off since initially losing those 100 pounds.

The tools I will use to lose weight will be similar to what I have used in the past. I will track my weight weekly on Sunday mornings. I will log my calorie intake daily in MyFitnessPal. I have used Lose It in the past but let me explain why I want to go back to MyFitnessPal after using Lose It the last several attempts. I used MFP back when I had the most success. It is not so much about that. It actually has everything to do with my step counter. I simply enjoy the way that MFP integrates my Apple Watch into my daily logs. With LI there does not seem to be much data regarding steps or anything. It is only when you have a lot of activity that you see an adjustment to your calories budget. What I find with MFP though is that as I log my calories it is very easy to see my last synced step count and I found that was often times a motivator to get up and be more active.

I am thinking hard about whether or not I want to make some kind of commitment that if I have not lost weight in a year that maybe I will just undergo a procedure anyway. I will continue to think about that and discuss further in future blog posts. Something has to give. That is for sure, and I don't want it to be my time on earth. More in a week. Goodbye.