Saturday, April 6, 2019

Failure

It is that time again. I have to admit at the outset that I did not want to write this blog post. Prior to weighing, I knew that I had a rough week. I was afraid that I may have gained everything back. I will get into that more shortly. First, let's get the numbers out of the way.

The previous weigh in on 3/30 was 383.2 pounds. The past week resulted in a gain of 0.8 pounds. My current weight is currently 384.0 pounds.

I am actually pretty relieved to see that number. This past week I had very little restraint. I feel like a hypocrite writing about temptations that I recognized last week and yet I succumbed to them this week in a big way. I am disappointed and feel like a failure. This was responsible for my reluctance to write this blog post.

Yet, I know that for me, this race is not going to be easy. No one is going to run it for me and I am going to stumble. I have to get back up. I have to fight. I have too much on the line. I will force myself to write about it when I fail because failure will not be an option for me. I will only be a failure if I give up. I hope that anyone reading this blog will be able to relate in some way and understand that if I say something one week that I may miss the mark the next. But my intentions are sincere.

I am very embarrassed to post these calorie numbers from the past week but I own this shortcoming. This was my fault. I will not paint it as something it was not. I need a better week to write about next time. Until then, goodbye!

3/30 2,869 calories in, 5,030 calories out
3/31 3,200 calories in, 4,312 calories out
4/1 3,828 calories in, 4,551 calories out
4/2 4,680 calories in, 4,775 calories out
4/3 3,842 calories in, 4,182 calories out
4/4 2,943 calories in, 4,895 calories out
4/5 4,050 calories in, 4,629 calories out

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